Songs that Remind me of My Break-Ups with My Exes

I wanted to post this, because I came across DMX's song Hows It Going Down. A song I loved as a freshman in high school but didn't quite understand till I just watched a few weeks ago. And it truly really spoke to me for the first time, especially the last verse.

"But you belonged to Cuz, couldn't belong to me
You had two kids by this nigga, it was wrong for me
But we gon' always be, best of friends
Mad love, Boo, to the end

Ahhh Savvy Sav. I miss you and think about that turbulent Summer of Love all the time.

I woulda loved to have been the Satre to your Beauvoir, but I'll be here for you, no matter what circles you run with.

The Tonight Tonight Cover by Passion Pit

Was listening to this as I was yelling on the phone with you and how it was the end of any friendship we could've had. We haven't talked in a long time, a major disruption to seeing and talking to each other every day for a year.

This is a particularly forward-looking song, which makes me wonder where we'll be in 20 years and what we'd say to each other.


Well, we didn't quite break up on this song. I still talk to you, you're a homey now, even though I barely see you, whatevs, but we were all so dramatic 10 years ago. Haha.

All Lykke All the Time

So Lykke's been the voice of choice

When I've had my last two...who were...

Where I just wanted a...

And eventually

But then...

Favorite line in all the songs:

"Like a shot gun, needs an outcome
I"m your prostitute, you gon' get some"

Only time I liked to get pushed around is the heat between the sheets.

Sad Songs of November

Bluesy mood.

Boy o boy, every freakin' year in grad school at around November.

I suffer some kind of significant other heartbreak.

At this point, it's all fodder for comedy.

The application to be my girlfriend/significant other/partner has officially opened.

1) Breathing and Walking
2) Be really really excited about me at first, just by reading my writing
3) As the months pile on, taper your excitement, find out that I'm not that exciting in real life
4) Get ready to officially cut ties and dump my ass by next October. 

If interested, please call 1-323-DNT-CARE, many times

Al Green - How to Mend a Broken Heart

Via my friend Ivan Galavante.

Amy Winehouse - Help Yourself

Wyclef - Gone Till November

New Edition - If It Isn't Love

This was actually a song given to me by a friend named Geetz. Song made me happy and optimistic, so I'll end on that.

New Appreciation for the Category of "Classical"

Thanks to these songs, both of which I've already posted on this blog.

However, I must point out that each of these songs have since acquired additional meanings: These two songs below are my fighting songs for the moment in this year 2 of g-school.

I've never really been opened up to the category "classical","classically-trained musicians", "orchestra" or anything else related, though I've tried to be.

There was just no meaning to it for me. In grade school, there was no band, there was no instruments. All we really learned was how to sing church songs and Christmas songs. In my all-boys Catholic high school, the reality was that being associated with music was associated with a stigmatized sexual orientation.

Being working immigrants, my folks didn't listen much to classical either and left the car radio to my sister and I, which we made sure to fill with Gangsta's Paradise and MC Lyte's Keep Keepin' On.

I saw classical and orchestra music in antagonistic terms, which didn't improve with the internet. I would look for my selection of rap, hip-hop, R&B, jazz. And when I did, I encountered internet battles and micro-insults questioning the legitimacy of rap and hip-hop as "music", mostly stemming from "classically-trained musicians." So I used to see classical and orchestra music as "borgeoisie."

I guess my life in 2011 has gotten so bourgeoisie that my "tastes have evolved to the point where I consume music like someone would consume high art.

Anyhow, the first piece isn't really an all out orchestra, but I appreciate the sounds of the cello.

Hood Internet/Ellie Goulding/Kanye West/Portland Cello Project - All of the Lights Mashup

Said one youtube commenter
"The drums are making love to Ellie's voice and it sounds beautiful."

Bit of a strange comment that I don't think the commenter would make if Ellie wasn't attractive, but nonetheless I agree and felt the need to point it out still.

The drums pressure-pumping with the cello's importance reminds me of the depths of rising from nowhere.

Madolin Orchestra Ensemble - Always With Me

I don't know many terms for orchestra music, but, it's a piece that cycles, but each time it does, it comes back with something slightly different. The syncness with variation of the guitars gives it many different little flavors. The xylophone players inch deeper and deeper, and the gong drums sound even more important.

This song in its cycles reminds me of all the depth and beauty of Savatri.